If only there were a sufficient cause! I must not think too much of this, or I may be tempted. A good cause might turn the scale with me, for may not I too be of an exceptional brain, congenitally?

How well the man reasoned. Lunatics always do within their own scope. I wonder at how many lives he values a man, or if at only one. He has closed the account most accurately, and today begun a new record. How many of us begin a new record with each day of our lives? To me it seems only yesterday that my whole life ended with my new hope, and that truly I began a new record. So it shall be until the Great Recorder sums me up and closes my ledger account with a balance to profit or loss.

Oh, Lucy, Lucy, I cannot be angry with you, nor can I be angry with my friend whose happiness is yours, but I must only wait on, hopeless, and work. Work! Work! If I could have as strong a cause as my poor, mad friend there, a good, unselfish cause to make me work, that would be indeed happiness.

Vocabulary:

Turn the scale: Affect a decision
Congenital: Acquired by birth or habit
Scope: An area that is focussed upon
Great Recorder: Here he means 'death'
Ledger: A book keeping financial records